light and dark

i am a tree that lives boundaries, i am a stick that pokes in the ground, i am a bee that flies joyfully, i am the ice and thunder cracking sound. i define the undefinable, i find myself in peaks and lulls, i am constantly refinable, like the finest diamond coal, the pressure mounts and mounts and then shazam! i shine in a new way. this day i say i may replay the way i feel delay the time to kneel today to kneel i may create this day i want this way i daunt this vision that haunts me to this day, this vision of perfect imperfect beauty, this vision of courageous ferocity, joyful luminosity, fearful monstrosity, sad calamity, mad insanity, shameful vanity. i shake in my power; i wake to this hour; i make love in the shower; i break and i brake; i take more than i give; i give more than i take; i hate more than i want; i flaunt more than i tell; i'm fucked more than i'm well. but what's the point? i ask. what's the point to be well and no more? i swell, i cannot help it, but i qwell my power, hoping one day i will be more normal and stable and normally able. no, fuck no! i am fucked. fucked up and fucked down. yes i am weird, a little crazy, a little lazy, but i got something! i got something. no more mister nice guy. maybe feisty guy. don't-know-what-to-think-of-him guy. shy spry guy. nerdy wordy guy. culty shmulty guy. all-over-the-place guy. nice try guy. one of a kind guy. that's my kind of a guy! within i'm in i spout about to shout about i spin herein delineate to state or brake find out the thick and thin about i'm out.